Sad feelings

Put a fellow on the top of a organisation who cannot makes any decision, and listen to only certain party, with a committee of ppl who are keen on getting more and more power, biases, and below them, some ppl who reject every request, or over-quote for services rendered, and what would you get?

A total disaster, right?

Am wondering how come that organisation can still survive? Am waiting for that day when the organisation collaspe totally, and i wonder when. The thing is that the ppl at the top are too comfortable with their seats, their own bosses in their little kingdom, refusing to listen to the ppl who are in the field. With a few exceptions.

Perhaps someday, someone will be the whistle blower. Perhaps some one will wake up, realised that for the good of the organisation, for the reputation of that organisation, something must be done straight away. But at this time, anyone who has awaken will get shoot down, stabbed in the back by those who are still in slumberland.

Sometimes, i would really wish that those at the upper management would just disappear... *poof!!! just like that.

I am getting tired. Very tired. Tired of being involved in politics. Tired of working so hard, spending so much time in that organisation, and all i get is being bad-mouthed, shot in the back, stabbed, beheaded, degutted, while they smear salt on my flesh. Tired of not getting support (except the ppl and management from my little kingdom).

Maybe i should stick back to my own little kingdom, bo-chuping everything, doing what i need to do, nothing more, seeing the organisation name being sunk deeper into the stinking hole, and maybe, deserting before the ship sinks.

But deep in me, i know i cannot do that. I simply cannot be rats deserting a sinking ship. But with these type of higher management, i simply have no space to turn, much less chiong. But seeing the ship sinking, with us being tied up, gagged, unable to help, that feeling is overwhelmed.

As what my friend had said... "the last battle had already been fought and I had already perished in the midst of this crazy and stupid war."

Tell me, what should i do??

Is it worth it to spend so much time on something that you gets shot in return?

Sometimes, i really do want to meet up with Richard Marcinko.